This weekend I watched a movie named Steel Magnolia. If you have not seen it, I would add it to your to-do list. The movie really captures the in what my opinion is the circle of life for a small group of women. To summarize in this movie, you see a mother who desperately wants her daughter to live a ‘normal’ and happy life despite her daughter being a severe diabetic but knows that if she pursues the dream of having children it could come at the expense of her own life. The daughter becomes pregnant despite doctor’s instructions and as a result needs kidney transplant after having her son. Like any mother would do in these circumstance’s, she gives her kidney to save her daughter’s life only to come face to face with the reality her daughter would succumb to her disease and end’s up passing away.
The loss in this movie strikes an emotional reaction out of me and I am crying as I am watching this film. I know what it is like to touch the cold casket of your daughter. To feel the cold steel pressed against your palm and to cry helplessly. To see the lifeless face of your daughter, knowing there is nothing you can do to bring her back. To cry out to God in pure agony, wondering, demanding and questioning why? What did I do to deserve such a loss? Listening to words of man that will never console my soul. My flesh misses my daughter, it is unnatural for me to roam this earth without all of the people I have brought into it.
At the end of the movie, there is a lady who tries to console the mom and she says what I needed to hear. Sometimes our loved ones try so hard to take care of everyone that is physically impossible to do that in their own body. The only way someone can make sure all of us are taken care of, is to leave this body, be with God and become our guardian angel. She is with God and she is now always with you.
Alexis is my Magnolia. By definition, a Magnolia is a tree that represent purity, nobility and has healing powers. God is my Steel, he is my foundation, he is what makes me strong and ensures I will not fall or succumb to the depths of my own despair. If you have lost someone, know that they have been tasked with the ultimate responsibility. Watching over us, guiding us and loving us. One day, when we take our last breath we will also be someone’s Magnolia. God will always be our Steel.