Before I write my blog post each week, I pray on what God wants me to write about. If it doesn’t come to me through my prayer, I wait to see if the message in church has relevance in my journey to share with you all. I’m happy to report, God never disappoints and his word is always on time.
This week has been a challenging one for me. Friday was my tipping point, I was mentally exhausted. I was judging people for what they were doing and not doing. I began to question why does anyone do the right thing, if other’s can get away with doing less? I was looking at what I have been through since my daughters passing and how I was handling it all and I started to find myself the victim in a story that I was only telling myself. I started to say things like- Why even try to do the right thing anymore? People just don’t care.
Some of these emotions were still carrying over into today and then I heard the message I needed to hear from God. What is the difference between discipline and character? Discipline is when you train yourself on how to respond to circumstances and people. Character is the mental and moral qualities a person has. In other words, it is engrained in you. Your character is who you are. Your character will supersede your discipline and how we react and respond to circumstances and people.
In a time where life is happening to so many of us, it easy to point blame, judge others, insert your opinion and keep tally of wounds we are enduring or healing from. If I personally sat and compared my trials to yours, what good would that do? God does not keep tally of our good nor our sin. He focuses on character and the consistency of it. 2nd Timothy 2:22 says ‘Be careful not to do the kind of bad things that young people often want to do. Instead, always try to do what is right and fair. Continue to trust God. Love other people and live in peace with them.’
It is easy to justify my thoughts, pain and even opinions right now because I have endured such a traumatic loss. Besides, no one else can possibly know what I’m feeling. Right? Wrong. The message today from pastor was clear. Don’t let a tough, ugly moment in time make us tough and ugly. Love each other, Love ourselves and Love God. He will continue to strengthen our character in him.